This Is My Curse

Fuck it, I am gonna write about it. I was flirting with a thought if I should or shouldn’t make a post about it, but it looks like it’s not gonna leave my mind anytime soon. And even though it is very personal, I feel like you already know a lot when it comes to what goes through my mind, thus what I am going thruuu. So here we go.

I feel like there is something new, like a new experience or a habit of some sort, that you have to learn/build in every one of your incarnations. And I guess my current one is to learn how to be on my own. There is too many people leaving from my life, both alive and dead. Or maybe it’s my curse from my previous incarnations. As Paulo Coelho was talking about in one of his books called “Aleph”, he was haunted by something he was responsible for in one of his previous lifes in his next ones. And I feel like there is something wrong when it comes to me and other people who are a part of my life. Because that “being part” suddenly becomes “being apart” at one point or the other.

I was writing about this in one of my very first articles. But something similar happened to me again couple of days ago. A person that was very close to me decided that he doesn’t want to include himself in my life anymore. And it hurt again. And it was difficult. It is difficult, when people pack all their things and move on, but they still stay in your head with all of their shit still unmoved, because you don’t even understand why did it happen.

You know, I feel like I am definitely not a bad person. I am not a bad friend. I know that. I never have intentions of hurting other people, I try to be as kind as I can be. Of course I sometimes make mistakes, but I don’t think that those small things or actions are the reason why people feel like they should go. I think there must be a deeper meaning.

When I asked them to tell me the reason, their answer was: “I don’t know.” They don’t know… and I don’t know either. But it is like that. And I kinda feel like it is my “curse” or something I have to learn in my current life. It is difficult. But well… a lot of things in life are difficult. I am just gonna try to take it easy. I’ve already been doing that. Trying to live like life is a game. And I am just a little player. One in billions. And everyone has shit to deal it. This was mine.

Thanks for spending a minute or two with me. It means a lot. Talk to you soon. ❤

Who Really Am I? (INFJ)

Sometimes you feel so lonely. You feel like there is not a single creature (okay, except your dog) that can understand you. And then there comes a time when even the dog doesn’t have a damn clue what the fuck are you trying to say. I felt like this many, many times during my life. But as cheesy as it sounds, one day I have found out that I am not the only one. There is a lot more people out there, floating around in the universe with me, feeling exactly the same. Or better said, being exactly the same.

I was “diagnosed” (yes, it can be quite extreme) being an INFJ. It is one of the 16 personality types according to Myers-Briggs test that you can fill out here. I standing for Introversion, N for Intuition, F for Feeling and J for Judging. When I read the results, I was seriously in shock. I felt like many things I did in my life finally made some sense, even though I never thought about them being right or a “normal” thing.

My perfectionism, being a bit too goal-oriented, loving creativity and being very independent but still adoring to be around people that I like. I must tell you, INFJs are really weird people. We are the rarest personality type on this planet (who knows, maybe the extraterrestrials are too), only 1-3% of people fall under this category.

As much as I am proud of being an INFJ, I must say that sometimes it can get quite exhausting. Being very sensitive and emphatic, I can feel the energy of other people penetrating my skin and becoming mine. Sometimes I can’t even understand my own feelings, as they can get very complex. As my boyfriend said when he met me, I am a mystery.

I can’t advise you enough to make the test yourself. Just make it as many times as you feel like. When it comes to me I have always been an INFJ no matter how many times I made the test spread throughout the years. It will really give you a deeper understanding of yourself and you can meet the same type of people like you! There is a plenty of groups on Facebook that you can join and make friends that will (finally) understand you, haha.

Also, when I know a person’s type, I can understand them better. There are some types that don’t resonate with each other that much, so maybe that one annoying friend that you never knew why is so annoying just might be a type that you simply can’t click with. And when you learn about it a bit more, you can even try to guess what types are people around you. Sometimes I do this “game” with my boyfriend, when we try to guess what types are people we both know.

Go ahead and make the test and don’t forget to let me know what type you got! (now I feel like this is a sponsored post, but meh, I can just wish) Talk to you soon. ❤

More Philosophical Questions

I have decided to answer some more of thought provoking questions as I had a lot of fun answering a couple last time and got a pretty good feedback. Let’s see what do we have here today!

Is free will real or just an illusion?

Well, depends from which point of view you take it. But overall I think that in the current world system you can’t be free no matter what. You have set of rules for absolutely everything. I don’t think that majority of people realise how intense it is when it comes to government.

Why do we dream?

Our brain tries to deal with the problems we have while we sleep. I recommend a really good book that I read couple of years ago called “Dream Sight”. There is a really nice explanation in the beginning followed by a list of dream interpretations which are very very precise as you have to always connect it to yourself. It is not a kind of book where they tell you that if you dreamt about a turtle, you will have a good luck or something haha.

If a child somehow survived and grew up in the wilderness without any human contact, how “human” would they be without the influence of society and culture?

This is a really interesting question. I think that there would be certain aspects that would benefit, but also harm the child. It would be extremely difficult to become a part of the society after years spent in the wilderness. But the child would also not be brainwashed from all the media, (cult)ure and stuff like that. The kid would definitely be very different, probably just running around naked or covered in something made from the nature, not caring what other creatures around think and be guided by instincts.

Is it possible to live a normal life and not ever tell a lie?

Of course it is. I am not gonna play a saint – I lied in my past, but when I look at it now… I could have easily just go ahead without saying these lies and be honest at all times. There is no such thing as “normal life”, so why not keep a good karma and stay truthful to yourself and others?

How would humanity change if all humans’ life expectancy was significantly increased (let’s say to around 500 years)?

I think that it would definitely be a good thing for some people and a bad thing for others. When it comes to me, I always feel like I don’t have enough time to do everything I would like in my life. For example if I know that I would live until 500 years, I would like to not learn only how to play a piano, but I would want to conquer guitar, drums, violin… I would also not fix on one thing, but be more open to different fields than art and design. But it might be as I mentioned a bad thing for others, as they would be maybe even more lost than they are now. Also, some people work at the same job almost their whole life. In this case it wouldn’t be probably possible, so it would be a challenge for many souls.

What does it mean to live a good life?

When it comes to me, a good life is lived when you can master your mind. You create your own happiness, thus you live a good life. Or actually, that would be a perfect life haha. But I definitely think, that just doing what makes you happy, being open-minded and loving is a way to live a good life. What do you think?

Discovering Wicca

Hey kind souls. What are you up to? Let me know down in the comments, I would be really excited to hear from you! When it comes to me, I’ve been working a lot lately, meh. But actually, I am not that mad about it to be honest as I am getting resources in return, that I will invest into my project, another stardust, in the near future.

I have also been getting a lot of new knowledge about different topics, which is what I am going to write about in this article. One of them is for example witchcraft. It may sound crazy, but I think it is very nice to kind of “listen to everything, believe nothing”. Simply to be open-minded. I like to get to know various philosophies, religions or you could say conspiracies. But what I always make sure to do is to go into a lot of research before I make my own opinions. That is basically what I do in all aspects in my life. Staying true to myself and not jumping into conclusions if I don’t have enough information about a subject. And of course, it can always change. Change is a vital part of life.

So, when it comes to the witchcraft, I have stumbled upon something called “wicca” – which if you never heard about, it is basically a religion. As I understood, there is a difference between a witch and a wicca (person), in a sense that wiccans are guided by the religion, they have rules and there is a God and a Goddess. It is really interesting for me, as one of their core principles is to harm none, which is something I highly agree with. They always think about nature and are very connected to it and use the power of nature to basically “heal the world”. They are putting positive energy out in the world and yes, they use potions and spells and wands and crystals…

I have actually never realised that I am a bit connected to the witchcraft in a way that I also use crystals and tarot cards, I love essential oils and incense which is a part of nature as well. I am brining a lot of nature into my apartments in a form of plants and twigs (yes, that actually is my new obsession, weird I know), especially my room which is kind of my sacred space. I have also built my own altar which I never thought about it this way, but it contains everything that I basically use when I meditate, pray to the universe or when I am doing my tarot readings. It also contains all my books which are a huge part of my life journey when it comes to learning. I am in no way calling myself a witch or a wicca but I think it is really something I will put a LOT of energy when it comes to research from now on.

When I get more interesting knowledge, I will definitely share it with all of you, stardusts. That is it for now. Just a little piece of my new discovery. Hope you are all doing well. Talk to you soon. ❤

Answering Thought Provoking Questions

Today I’ve decided to spice things a bit up and answer some quite “thought provoking” questions I found online. This way, you can get to know me maybe a lil’ bit better and I’m not gonna lie, it’s probably gonna be a challenge for me as I have to be very open and think deep. Let’s start, shall we?

What are the things that stand between you and complete happiness?

Okay, if I look at it from the perspective of my beliefs, the true happiness is found inside myself no matter what circumstances I have in my life or what is currently happening in my surroundings. If I can’t achieve that, there is only temporary “happiness” or better said excitement, which can be achieved from material things (buying a house) or psychological issues (honeymoon phase of a relationship) which is gonna eventually fade out and the life is gonna come back to a stereotype. So my answer to this question would be – it’s myself, my mind and time that is stopping me. I still have to grow and learn, get rid of my mental blockages and find absolute peace inside myself. It is a very long and ongoing process.

If you could send a message to the entire world, what would you say in 30 seconds?

This question is extremely difficult, as I think that the message I would really want to share with the world would do more bad than good. So I think I would go with something else, like advising people to always act in a way that would not harm themselves nor other beings. Then I would explain a bit, that we as a people have a huge potential to achieve what we truly want deep down in our souls and we should not settle for anything less than that. I would also advise them to take care of themselves, both physically and mentally, by listening to their body and meditating. The last thing I would say is to search for another stardust where I could tell them more, haha.

If you received enough money to never need to work again, what would you spend your time doing?

I would invest the money in a way where I’m sure I will not loose them, as I believe that the value of fiat currency (euros, dollars etc.) is going to completely vanish in the future. And after that, I would build a community of like-minded people somewhere in the world and still work on another stardust, as I want to help people and express myself for the rest of my life no matter how rich or poor I am.

Do you ask enough questions, or are you happily settling for what you know already?

Oh God I ask way too many questions haha. Not necessarily other people, but I’m always very curious, thinking about random stuff, watching a lot of videos and reading heaps of books.

If you could start over, what would you do differently?

Well, I would definitely jump on the “spiritual” journey a bit earlier. I would create more art, draw a lot, write even more and play a piano or something. I would learn how to have more confidence, so I could start using my skills from an early stage of my life.

What would you change about your life if you knew you would never die?

I am one of those people who believe in many lives of one soul. I even talked about my past life regression on this website, as well as on my Youtube channel. So I don’t think I would change anything, I would just let it flow as I feel like and do what I wanna do the most.

How do you celebrate the things you do have in your life?

I am being grateful. It always makes me so insanely happy. Just saying out loud stuff you’re grateful for can transform your entire day. It’s like a little party every morning haha.

Okay, I think this is enough for today, but I will definitely answer some more in the future as I really enjoyed answering all these! Let me know what would be your answers, or ask me more in the comments section and I can answer them in another article. Stay calm stardusts! Talk to you soon.

Trip, Getting Sick & Going Home

I took quite unexpected time off writing and filming videos. The last time I did something concerning “another stardust”, I think I was still back in Aarhus on a short weekend trip. Let’s see what happened since then…

Okay. So, the weekend getaway was really nice and refreshing, but guess what. I got sick… While strolling through the night streets, my winter jacket was probably still not enough and I started freezing. When we came back to our airbnb, I felt terrible. We were leaving the next day – on Sunday – which I basically spent feeling even worse. When we got back home, I definitely knew I’m not alright.

The next week I had last couple days of my internship. I even had to leave a bit earlier from there, as I felt like I’m gonna pass out or something not very exciting is gonna happen. I also decided to take off a day at my normal work (restaurant), as I knew I am probably not gonna be able to handle it at the moment.

The week was gone and I was looking forward to go visit my home country on Wednesday. I had couple of appointments I planned and I also just wanted to relax a bit with my family and pets. I got a ride home a day sooner than I thought, so around Wednesday lunch time I was already up and ready to conquer the week I had at home.

My dreadlocks appointment that I was soooo fricking excited for got unfortunately cancelled… Actually, not even once, but TWICE! Aaargh. I think I’m gonna talk about it a bit more in another article. I also had a dentist appointment, that went a bit better than I originally expected. Well… My tooth basically died, so I guess it’s pretty bad, but there was no pain… but I guess no gain either.

I spent a lot of time with my family, my dog and rabbit, eating out, shopping, meeting friends… a basic stuff you do when you study abroad and then go visit at home. I thought I would film some videos and write too, but I just somehow didn’t get to it. To sum it up, my vacation was nice, but on the other hand, there was absolutely no work getting done.

I guess I should also say, that the whole time I was at home, I was still sick. I was constantly doing something, as I didn’t want to waste my time by just laying in bed. Therefore I wasn’t getting better…

Guess where I went right after I came to Denmark around 10 p.m.? My work wohoo! Okay, maybe it sounds a bit more crazy than it actually was haha. I just went there for couple of hours to help my boy and of course to finally see him! We were done around 1 a.m. and went home.

This was followed by my boyfriend’s parents silver wedding party that took place in Southern Denmark, taking care of his and his parents boat, going back to central Denmark and working. Now I’m here, FINALLY writing something (<3) and going to work in about 2 hours. I am off tomorrow, so I will definitely film a new video on my Youtube channel!

Love you stardusts, stay calm. ❤ 

The Most Loved/Hated Book

Books. Books. Books. 

That’s pretty much all I’ve been thinking about lately haha. As I mentioned in one of my previous articles, I just started reading like crazy! So many books read in such a short time. Just amazing way of using my precious time on this Earth.

I’ve been trying to focus on books that are in some ways improving me, so I stayed out of a regular fiction. Sooo… I’ve just finished a well-known bestseller by Robert Kiyosaki called “Rich Dad Poor Dad”. This book has so much love, but oh well, so much hate too! I’ve actually never seen a book more loved/hated at the same time. I guess, the main reason is its controversiality. Close-minded people would definitely not like this piece.

When I was on a seminar held by a Czech businessman called Ivo Toman few years back, he was mocking this book so much, that it started to be funny. He basically didn’t believe in any alternative woo-woo stuff. Even though “Rich Dad Poor Dad” is not a spirit talk at all, it is still something “different”. Robert is teaching you 7 lessons about money, how to be rich and how to start living a life that goes out of the 9-5 stereotype. If people don’t accept this possibility – possibility of getting out of rat race (working everyday for someone just to pay off bills and debts) as he calls it, then all I can say is – good luck.

I really enjoyed reading it. To be honest, I knew about 70% of the information already, as my boyfriend is very interested in economics, investing and similar topics. But it was really nice to deepen the knowledge and see how other people “do it”. If you can, just try to grab a copy and apply some of the information in your life if you like. Since 2006, it is a period of time where knowledge is valued the most out of everything. And that is gonna be like that until 2026! The best advice I can give you right now, is just to read, watch, listen and don’t forget to share. I will be more than happy to help you on your journey. Talk to you soon. ❤

Sometimes I Have To Switch Off

Hi peaceful souls. I have taken a couple of days off, as I was feeling a bit under the weather. But I have decided I am gonna talk about it and possibly get myself back on the right track.

For the past few days, I have started to feel very unsure. I felt unbalanced and uninspired. I tried to write few times, but I simply couldn’t. I was just closing this window with a bit of anger, or maybe the better word would be – frustration. I couldn’t get out anything out of myself, I wasn’t even thinking. There was no inspiration at all. A creative block.

And then yesterday… Yesterday it hit me. I had a kind of mental breakdown, where I just couldn’t stop making myself guilty. I knew that I’m not failing, because there is a piece of hope very deep in my heart now, a feeling I can’t truly describe. But I just felt like I am stuck in this state of mind, where nothing made sense. I didn’t wanna do anything, the only thing I wanted to do is not feel. So I did that the first day. I was quite okay with that, just telling myself that I have to relax sometimes too (as I mentioned in one of my previous articles). This doesn’t usually happen to me though, I know when it’s time to recharge. But this time it was different.

The next day came and to my surprise, I was feeling still the same. I started to feel the tension, but I still tried to tell myself, that there is another day ahead – my day off my normal work, when I can spend my time working on my brand “another stardust” all day. But when that day came, I spent it in the same shitful state of mind. By the evening, it was too much. I hid myself in my room, closed the curtains and talked with the universe. I wanted to feel everything again, I wanted to go through the worst feeling, just to clear myself out of it. So I spent few hours like that, just trying to feel the worst to feel the best again. And I kind of did it.

Today I woke up, even though much later than I would normally want to, but I guess both my body and mind just needed some recovery. I cleaned my apartment, made delicious healthy cookies, meditated with aquamarine and celestine while listening to my favourite 528 Hz healing frequency, did a strawberry face mask and then worked a bit with my tarot cards. Now I am back here, writing and writing, words just slipping out of my sleeve like nothing. Yesterday I couldn’t even write 2 sentences. I can also see a spider hanging right above my computer, which if you didn’t know – is a guardian of writers.

Even though I get on my website often very personal, I still want to share this part of my journey with you all. I want you to know, that even though I might for some of you seem like a strong and balanced person, it’s not always like that. There is always times, when it all just starts to be a bit too much and I have to switch myself off. So when I’m not here for a couple days in the future, you will know why.  I have to take some time to recover, to gain my inspiration back.

See you very soon stardusts. Stay grateful. ❤

I am Myself

The time you start working on yourself, people start to think something is wrong with you.

When I first made my blog couple of years ago? I was weird. 

When I started my Youtube channel? I was naive, awkward and stupid. 

When I started attending seminars? I was part of a cult. 

People will always find something wrong with you, especially if you start doing something that they don’t understand. If they don’t see money in your hands right away, you are just wasting your time while looking stupid. I mean, why would you write articles or film videos if you don’t earn anything from it? That is such a waste of time, isn’t it?! 

Many people consider me as crazy, I know that. The reason? Well, there is couple of them.

I am spiritual. What I mean when I say I am spiritual is, that I work on myself – with myself, I try to be conscious and kind. Yes, I also meditate, work with crystals, tarot cards and practice yoga. But I don’t do it, because I think I’m such a “hipster”, I do it because I know it helps me. It makes me happy and I feel so much better when I do it. My soul is grateful everytime I invest into doing one of those activities.

I am a vegan. But I’m not a vegan because I want to throw it to everyone’s face or because it’s trendy. I am living this lifestyle, because I feel that it’s not just the best for myself, but also for the environment surrounding me. I am 100% sure about this, but I would never attack anyone with my opinions. I believe, that if you don’t make changes in your life because you feel like doing it, than it doesn’t make any sense. You would go back to your old ways sooner or later (as you can see on many people who became vegan as it is “soooo cool and Instagram friendly” and then you see them stuffing their faces with meat after 2 months). If you’re not feeling it, you’re not feeling it. If you’re not there, you’re not there. It’s as simple as that.

I am developing myself. How? I read books. And when I say books, I don’t mean just stories, but books about healing, nutrition, emotions, self-development etc. I find it so interesting to get a new knowledge, to learn how can I become better at this weird thing – called life. I watch videos. Videos about energy, human brain, NLP, hypnosis, astrology etc. Why? Because I love these topics, I want to know more about universe, about myself.

I would prefer to go dance in the forest than dance at a club. I would talk with myself in the mirror, tell my plants that I love them and thank the universe for having me.

You can call me crazy. 

But I’m myself. And I love absolutely EVERYTHING about it. I am not ashamed. I am happy and that is all that matters. I just want to give you one advice. Try to stay peaceful stardusts. Don’t do anything that you consider as harming yourself or others. Don’t judge. Don’t let your ego speak for you. 

See you very soon. ❤